Missing Person

i never had one
well technically i do
but being nonexistent my whole life
you don't count

i've never met you
i don't know if i want to
the fear of disappointment and rejection
looms over my head

i guess i understand
why you have never contacted me
it would probably be awkward
between the two of us

but i still have that longing
for that embrace of protection
that you would give me
if you were here

maybe someday i'll go
and find out where you are
and knock on your door
nervous as can be

and when you open it
i'll look at you and say
hi. i'm abby. your daaughter
you son of a bitch, you left me.

18 years and counting
i haven't been able to say
with a card or my voice
Happy Father's Day... Dad.