should i?

i'm not sure what to say.
or how to say it.
all i know is that i want to say it.
and have for a while.

but i'm afraid.

i don't want to disappoint you.
ruin what we have built up.
make you act differently.
or be on your guard.

i just want to let you know what i feel.
but i also don't want to face your reaction.
i'm torn. i'm unsure.
should i tell you?
should i be honest?
when me being honest could potentially ruin everything we've worked for?
i'm not sure if it's worth it.
but then again, it could be.

me. right now. in one word.






NUMB.