made new.

revival. the best yet.
it spoke to me. shook me at my core.
you knocked on the door. i answered.
i was afraid to. afraid to show you what was inside. the mess i have made of myself.
you walked in. looked around. and helped me clean up.
but not everything. i wouldn't let you. not yet.
i'm a work in progress. don't know if i'll ever be completely cleaned up.

i'm trying to be better. get better. create new habits.
be a better person. not swear. be nicer. love everyone.
not judge. be helpful. and kind.
it's going to take time.
and i know that i will falter.
but i also know.
that you will be with me. every step of the way.
guiding me. picking me up when i fall. and encouraging me when i need it.
you amaze me. sometimes i just don't understand.
how you love me.
thank you God.
you are the ultimate best friend.

2 days

college is wearing me out.
i've been sleeping alot.
i should be right now.
ha.

i never feel like writing anymore.
i'm just so content.
i'm just livin' life.
and loving every minute of it :)