leave

these walls are my cage
and have been for 18 years
i used to be young and naive
believed everything you said
went along with it all
the hypocrisy
the judgment
i just sat quietly
and let you tell me what to think

but not anymore.
i am now using my own brain
thinking my own thoughts
saying what i truly feel
even if those things hurt you
believing what i want
not what you tell me to
seeing how close-minded and critical our whole family is
and i hate it

you'd have to be blind not to see what i'm describing
the tension
the lies
the two-faced people
but i guess that's family for you.

i am determined to be who i am.
not who my you tell me to be.
this is my life.
not yours.
stop trying to live it for me.